1st and always

You know I hate goodbyes. And this one was the hardest. Yes, you might consider it as see you later, yet I felt so scared of never seeing you again that my feet would just feel distant. I wanted to say so much, yet I was so … strange … I didn’t show almost any emotions. And I had plenty of them.

Too bad people realize how much they miss someone when they do not have him around anymore. They realize about all the moments they could’ve spent together, all the time they could’ve devoted for being together instead of doing something else - when it is all going to its end.

Too many mistakes, too many killers, even the last moments could have been different – yet they were not … all a big shame … but I don’t blame. All I wish is that all the all I wish were actually happening and not something we complaint of later. Yet I wish again. And it all turns out to be a big wish …

I hate goodbyes. But I’ll always remember. Because I keep saying it all the time. And because I kept going against all that’s logical, and all that my friends were telling me not to do. Yet I kept doing it. I kept coming back. Because I keep saying it all the time. Now I wait. Now you wait. And if what I’ve been saying is what you’ve thought of but never said, and if all other ifs are in our favor – then we shall overcome and be together.