You know I hate deadlines …

As a marketer I need to be able to draw really good pictures, and I believe that I do – I’m really good at it. However even the pictures I have for reality are not good enough to change the present. And I will not deceive to receive.

Something had to be done – something was not done. How did I feel: I felt as being left down again. I almost left. But the idea of leaving the most extraordinary personified experience of my life so far and the idea of shutting down all the doors towards it at this instant … was unacceptable for me.

Bent like a tree – close to breaking down from the wind. I realized at this particular moment thaI my chances of surviving the storm and seeing the sunshine this time are close to zero – and I didn’t know where I went wrong or what I didn’t do … The result remained: I was not the choice.

I’ve said it out loud to myself right before I fell asleep – I fear that it will never happen, no matter how hard I want and try to make it happen – the tango is a dance for two, you know … but I will at least share the moments of pure happiness whenever I can …

Why I stayed? – because I keep saying it all the time.

[care is included].

… and even though I hate to set deadlines – ironically the 27th might represent the death of something beautiful. It is an end, but also a beginning – the beginning of the nothing… [or if there is still some space for hope left – the beginning of my life.]